I am at that stage and I thought that I will share it. I think all sides should be shown. Not only the happy and optimistic one – i.e. just plan, get organised, get routine going and you will get there…
Today I feel completely different and it is not for the first time. After all my planning and research, I see this massive and mean MASSIVE hill. Immense amount of work that needs to be done and immense amount of after hours that will have to be put into different projects. On the top of it, I know that at my 9-5 work the busiest period is coming and I will be coming home feeling like squeezed lemon. At this stage, I am not sure if it is all worth it. Will I ever break free and do what I truly love? Or will I have to do my hours and save from the little I am paid.
At this stage, I am scaling down my ambitious plans and focusing on things that:
- I love to do and therefore I will be able to carry on with
- are essential for the day to day business and cannot be dropped
- not looking at analytics too often and reducing learning hours
- putting on hold shiny objects that I really wanted but I know that
- there are not enough hours in the day
I do know that this is a mini-burnout and I need to make certain changes. I think the feeling that “I will never get there” is one of the most damaging and numbing to small business and solopreneurs. It is the more nudging as these feelings are often faced alone.
However, I know this is just part of the journey. The journey is by no means rosy. It is a hard work. It is many hours which could have been spent differently (i.e. watching Netflix or YouTube). So if you are at this point as well, don’t despair. Take a deep breath and pause to have a quick mental check. Look at all possible things that can help you – your family, friend, community or someone in a similar line of business. Take it as a part of the journey towards your goals. And yes, it will get better 🙂