I hear this so often, yet until recently I would not give you a clear answer. Of course, I could always make something up. I could can say something to my parents and something different to my kids. I could blurt something out without thinking about it too much. Especially when I wanted to sound deep and philosophical.
My purpose has changed over the years. I went through different stages and each seemed to have fairly clear purpose. But I never thought about it that much. I took what was there in front of me – what was told to me by my parents, friends, classmates, coworkers, bosses, media. I think, you know where I am getting with is.
Staying at home because of Covid brought this fundamental question back to my mind. I have more time to think about it and I am happy to say that ‘something’ is emerging. It is deeply personal and maybe slightly unexpected for people around me. I hope you will not mind that I will keep it private. I did not write this post to share it anyway. The reason why I am writing about is that I feel lot more calmer, balanced, joyful – maybe I should liken it to the feeling of ‘coming home.’
I often write about things that worked for me. And this is one of them. So all I wanted to say with this post is: “Find your purpose and you will be happier…”
This might be useful for someone who works at home with a great intensity. That is what I have been doing during the lockdown and it occurred to me – that instead of having a big creative block or a big burnout, I experience a series of small ones. Not sure why it is, but this is how I deal with them.
Usually, when I put 100% into something or all my creative focus into one thing, I get very excited and almost nervous. I want to get straight to it. Bring it to this world so to speak – and usually I do. Sometimes, during that process, I start feeling like I am just pulled into some desert plains. I start asking about my motives, if someone is going to care, will it serve someone, am I wasting my time and so on. This is disappointing for me, simply because after a great high becomes a great low. And I think that is where many people stop creating and abandon their original idea/intention.
Now, when I am at home and I do need to find other strategies, I react differently. When I start feeling like this – I stop. I don’t push through anymore and I take time from it. I can do this just because I am at home. What works best for me is when I sleep on it. The next morning, I look at it with fresh eyes. And I am sure my brain worked on it as well while I slept. Then I continue and I finish the task no matter what where my initial feelings – euphoria or subsequent feelings – negativity. I finish it from a more balanced and neutral place.
I am writing this because you might be feeling the same, starting something with a great enthusiasm and then stopping it with negative feelings. I think, the best way through this is to embrace it and realise, yes, this is the process, this is how I work. There will be these ups and downs – and so what? Why it should stop me? This is how I work. This is how I get things done – and there is nothing wrong with it.
So keep on going my friends, no matter how hard it seems 🙂